5 of Wands

This week’s Tarot-Draw is the Five of Wands.

There’s a point where construction and destruction appear the same.

There’s a Venn diagram where building, destroying, and just f-ing around overlap.

Are you building, destroying, or faffing about? No judgement.

It’d be nice if you informed your team which way it is.

Hey internal council, my inner crew, we’re doing XYZ.

Is it paradoxical that I’ve asked for and wished for a comfy cozy and boring Fall, but I just noticed and admitted to myself that I’m bored and missing the drama…?

Also note, boredom for me is not a lack of things to do, rather it’s a lack of things I WANT to do.

I have plenty of things I could or should be doing. A larger part of me just doesn’t want to and would rather kick up a shartstorm as a distraction.

What do you do if you’re bored with sobriety? *(My inner drama queen seductively asks as if on cue.)

A correlation perhaps… I’ve also noticed a lack of continuity in my habits e.g. why do I forget to draw the tail sometimes; why am I emotionally eating so much; what happened to our weekly exercise goals; where are you, where’s your practice??

I‘ve been noticing it for a bit but now it’s on the how do I take it into account list?

How do I plan around it, or with it?

What am I going to do about it?

How does one transmute negativity into your favor? Put it to work FOR your higher goals.

It comes down to what I am willing to do versus what I currently (and honestly) have the energy and the wherewithal to do.

Well… plus what I can trick myself into doing.

This week in Psychic Sleep we’ll touch on themes of: habit farming; internal coherence; and scheduling some dilly-dally.